Letting Go and Falling into Trust

I recently was reflecting on the times in mine and my husband’s 11 years of marriage when we have made huge changes, huge leaps of faith and let go of those things that we thought were necessary for our daily lives. It was as if we heard the love whispers from our Creator, speaking to us and saying, “Let go of it and I will take it from here.”

It felt as though we were literally standing at a fork in the road of life and He spoke to us and said, “Trust.” We prayed, trembling in fear of the unknown and replied, “Yes, Lord.”

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I’m not talking about giving up cable, extra spending money, hair and nail appointments, eating out or unnecessary vacations.

I’m talking about giving up our 2nd vehicle, our home, our family business and 2nd source of income. I’m going to say that again…

–We sold our 2nd vehicle and shared 1 vehicle for almost 5 years so that we could send our first-born child to a private Catholic School because we believe so deeply in the core values, faith and education that school would provide for our child and our family.

-We sold our home in a beautiful, quiet, family oriented community, to move closer to our children’s school and to also accomplish some financial goals that selling our home would fulfill.

-We let go of our family business and 2nd source of income so that I could be home and raise our growing family. You see, my brother and I built a very successful family business. This business allowed me to “work from home” but let’s be honest, “working from home” looked like this… a nanny was in my home, taking care of our children while I ran my family business and was on the clock 7 days a week, sometimes 12 hours a day.

After 5 years my health started to decline dramatically due to the stress of being a business owner and my soul was suffering from being torn between raising my family and running my business.

I never thought I would want to be a stay-at-home mom. Therefore, our “life plan” didn’t entail me doing so. We weren’t prepared to live on one income. Therefore, letting go of our family business was a horrifying thought.

Something HUGE had to change though. So much was at stake. My husband and I prayed, trembled in fear of the unknown and asked for the Lord to guide us, yet again.

We now are renters! What? How can I be happy about that, you ask? Because it means that I am home raising my babies. This is what our single-income family can afford to keep me home and that’s what it takes for this season of our lives.

I have learned so much from becoming a wife and mother. One of the most comforting things is…life happens in “seasons.”

For this season in our lives, we don’t eat out much, vacation hardly ever, we don’t buy expensive gifts, own our home, or have a large savings.

For this season in our lives, mommy gets to be home taking care of babies, chasing them when they are toddlers, teaching them as preschoolers and then greeting them when they come home from school.

Reflecting again on the last 11 years of marriage…we have trembled in prayer with the BIG decisions we’ve had to make. Yet, we reach out to Him.

I have to tell you, each time He hasn’t left us. Each time He humbles us. Each time He blesses us. Each time He catches us in the free fall of trust.

Don’t just “Let go and let God.” Leap into His arms.

Are you looking for a simple way to stay focused on God’s will for your life? Read our story about how God protected our son, sent him an angel and how my faith was magnified through a very simple prayer. A prayer that inspired a way for me to bless you.